Tuesday, March 1, 2011
.....and I feel like I just woke up from a night of no sleep! I look like it too! The last month or so has been a whirlwind of emotion, change, experience and growth! I might be exhausted, but I am exhausted and happy!
Previous to my "Blog Fast", I challenged myself to go for 40 days without any sweets. During that time, I found I really didn't need chocolate as much as I always thought I did.
Blogs, however; are an entirely different craving for me. I realize that I crave information, connection, creativity, and good writing! I love learning about other people's lives, interests, aspirations and accomplishments. Blogs inspire me! I have missed them.
In their absence though, I have learned that I have a big problem with balance. Learning to enjoy all things in moderation is a big deal to me, but right now I am not very good at it. I have also learned that I tend to go unconscious at times, turning to outside sources to avoid fully living my own life. I am not fully present in every moment. I realized this, when I was finding myself spending too much time reading, or watching movies when I couldn't turn to the blogs I usually escape to. Why would I do this? I don't know! I have a beautiful life filled with love and purpose and yet I seem to keep myself at a distance from everything I love. Hmmm....interesting.
I am learning to be more aware of who I am and how I am spending my time. I am trying not to judge myself....just observe and notice. During the last 40 days, a lot of wonderful new things have happened. My life is headed in a new and exciting direction, and I am so grateful to my Father in Heaven for giving me such an abundant and full life! It's my choice to accept it though. I think the Lord is offering all of us every good thing we desire.....we just have to ask for it and then make the choice to take it!
I highly recommend sacrificing something you might be holding on to a little too tightly. Stretch yourself. Take the time to step back and look at your life and behavior a little more closely. I promise the Lord will show you the parts that need to be let go of, and the best part, is he will replace those parts with the thing you really want......happiness!