Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I have been praying...PRAYING...that the Lord will grant me patience! I don't want to feel so frustrated in my heart, and I especially don't want to be short with my sweet husband and my precious babies.....therefore....... I need patience!
This morning, with Emilee bouncing all over me, (because I finally asked Tyler to get her up after listening to her bawl and yell for an hour and a half, because we wouldn't get her up at 5:30 a.m. because it is just too dang early, and quite frankly she needs more sleep)......I had a thought!
Patience is like any other skill or talent. If you want to get good at it, you MUST practice!
There are some prayer requests that can be granted immediately. I guess patience, at least in my case, is not one of them. So, as I lay there completely exhausted.....with self pity, and waves of frustration crashing over me....I finally allowed LOVE to enter my heart. I looked at Emilee and chose love. My mood shifted and I took her into my arms and snuggled her. I listened to her jabber on and on, and asked her several times to put daddy's earplug back on the night stand, and some how I was able to speak in a soft and gentle tone with my "slow to obedience" sweet little daughter. When she finally put the earplug back, I praised her and thanked her and snuggled her some more.
It was a good practice! And I was given a measure of patience.
The happy feelings lasted for about a half an hour until she started whining and bawling in her high chair for something she had to have, but I couldn't understand and was unable to give her. ARGGGH!
It looks like my prayers are being answered! Thankfully, my girls will provide me with a lot of opportunities for practice.
Wish me luck!