Messy

Am I a messy person? I don't know. It feels like it most of the time.

I don't like that feeling.

When we were young, Amber's side of our room was always so neat and tidy, her bed made to perfection. I recall her disgust with her messy older sister whose clothes were dropped here and draped there and piles of stuff, books, important papers, and sentimental items covered nearly every surface....I guess I can't really blame her.

Clutter is so unhealthy. I'm serious! Studies have been done.......there is proof. I try to clean things up....I try, but I'm not like my mother or my sister. Within the day of a good cleaning, piles are forming and clothes are draped and dropped. I must say, it drives me crazy! It makes me sad. I am so easily distracted by books and blogs, creative ideas, projects, cuddles, kisses, delicious food and good conversation. Chasing messes all day is too much, it distracts me from my distractions.

They say that cleanliness is next to godliness...............*long sigh*...........I want to be next to godliness. I do.

Sometimes I wonder if my outward mess is just evidence of cluttered surfaces on the inside. If that is the case, perhaps I just need to clean off those surfaces and then all of the physical ones will stay clean too.....finally. Perhaps there will then be enough of me to chase messes AND do the things I love.

Prayer, fasting, meditation, study, self reflection, energy clearing, focus, humility and the power of Christ's atonement. It sounds so simple. The solutions do exist. I am lucky, no, blessed to know what I know......it doesn't make it easy though.

Heavenly Father loves messy people, fortunately for me. My beautiful babies love their messy mama, and my Tyler loves his messy Michelle. They give me permission to love my mess......and I guess I do. My mess is glorious. It is mine to sort through and purge......and eventually let go of for good.

Some day I will be completely clean. My heart and my home.

Until then, please forgive my mess.

The Fairy Blog-Mother

If you have not heard of Stephanie Nielson that probably means you have not read her blog! If you haven't read her blog that might mean you have not been exposed to the beauty that is available to you as a woman.

About a year and a half ago, I was introduced to The NieNie Dialogues. I was smitten. I felt as though I had found a soul sister, someone who shared the dreamy romantic view of life that I held in my heart and soul. I felt freed. I was inspired. I was moved. To focus on the good, and to create the good. That is what NieNie taught me.

I've decided that blogging is powerful and here's why. It is a record of your thoughts, your dreams, your observations. It causes you to focus on the things you desire and the things you believe. You realize your capacity to love, you observe and feel gratitude for the love you receive. It exposes your complexities and simplicities. When you step back and really think about it, your blog is a portrait of yourself...........whoever you are, whatever you are....it is captured and thrown out as a ray of light in the darkness.

Writing is a creation process, but I am starting to believe that it helps in physical creation as well. When you write about life, you allow yourself to imagine something even greater.....as a result greater things come about. I know it has happened in my life. Perhaps it will in yours too!

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

Henry David Thoreau

Let's do this thing!

This is a view of our deck! It needs some serious love and care. Love and care that I have been withholding. Not because I don't feel it, but simply because I have been loving and caring for more important things.

Lucky for our deck, and all those who have ever had to witness our dirty diaper bag hanging next to the front door (nasty), I will finally be turning my attention and affection outside of my home. It will be hard for me to share my heart, but I feel it is important to express myself and my love in all areas of my stewardship. I want our yard and home to be inviting, and I want it to be an expression of who we are.....and we are NOT a bag of dirty diapers blowing in the breeze my friends......we are freshly mowed grass, a flourishing garden, and happy flowers.

Just wait.............you'll see!

Announcement

I have a food blog!!! Anyone who knows me well, or maybe not even that well, will know that I LOVE food! I love talking about food, making food, watching other people make food, and most of all eating food!!

So come join me on my New Blog, and I'll try to share some of my favorite food from time to time!

See you there!

My Space

In my brain resides a space, sweet, charming and all mine. In colors of ivory and blush with all of the perfect feminine touches! Kind of like Kathleen Kelly's apartment on "You've Got Mail". It will be light and airy, yet cozy, comfortable and inviting.

In this space is a desk. A beautiful desk where I create! I read and write and record all of my fabulous ideas and projects to beautify my life and my home. There on my desk sits a perfectly beautiful desk calender and it looks exactly like the one pictured above! Isn't it sweet?

To buy one of your very own go here!

Keeping House

I'm not the world's worst housekeeper, but I'm afraid I rank right up there. It is embarrassing how disorganized my home is on a regular basis.

I love beautifully organized and designed spaces, but for some reason I really struggle to maintain that in my own home. And I can't exactly use the kids as an excuse, because honestly I wasn't very good at it before I had kids.


For any of you who have been to my parent's house, you know my mother is an amazing housekeeper. She can't stand to have anything cluttered or out of order. I feel bad when we come to visit, bringing our chaos into her clean and orderly home. I'm sure she always breaths a sigh of relief when we are finally gone. I wish I would have inherited more of my mother's skills.


The reason I bring this up is because it is my new goal to get my home under control and then see how many consecutive days I can maintain the order!! I'm excited for the challenge!

We'll see how it goes.

If anyone has good tips on cleanliness and organization, feel free to share! I know the main key is getting off my rear and just doing it, but if you have any other good ideas, I'd love to hear!