Friday, October 1, 2010
A Good Day
"Whoa, wait......what time is it?", I thought. "How did you get into my apartment?" Everything was a swirl of confusion, sickness, and excitement! It was a Saturday, and not just any Saturday. It was General Conference Saturday, and I was excited to sleep in, and lazily lounge around the house listening to words of hope and counsel.
I jumped up and dressed in the dark, tried to comb my hair and met Tyler in the living room! He seemed nervous and excited. I couldn't say I was unaware of what was going on. It was a short time before, that I had finally agreed. It was time for us to be together forever. We hurried out to his truck and together we started toward the mountains. He had a back-pack filled with snacks and had even purchased a radio, so we could listen to the first session of conference together on top of squaw peak. As I mentioned before, I wasn't feeling well, so it didn't take long before I broke down! I felt horrible. I knew he had put a lot of thought into his plan and I knew it would all be wonderful, but I just couldn't do it! The work of hiking and climbing and straining and sweating was more than I could take considering the nausea and headache. I sobbed, not because of how I was feeling physically, but because of how I was feeling inside. The last thing I wanted to do was ruin this important day.
Together we sat on the side of the trail and he held me while I cried. We went back to the truck and he drove me home. I remember he was so sweet and so understanding. The truth was, it didn't matter where it happened. After our long and emotional journey to this point, it just felt good to have our focus on eternity.
We watched conference together. I don't really remember all of the details of the day, but I do remember that sometime after 4:00 p.m. we took a drive up Provo canyon and basked in the beauty of a changing season, both literally and figuratively. This is my favorite time of year and there is nothing like being surrounded by the warmth of Fall kissed mountains! I was in heaven!
We arrived at Sundance. We found a place to pull off the road and together we walked up into the trees. Tyler was nervous and knelt down in the leaves. A car pulled up a few yards away disturbing our peace and he quickly jumped to his feet. We quietly waited until they drove away. Again he knelt down and took my hands. He began to speak his emotional request, when quite unexpectedly a man came bursting through the bushes just a few feet away! Again Tyler jumped to his feet! We were both startled and quite surprised and laughed at the timing of the interruptions. The whole thing was kind of rushed, because Tyler had to be back by 6:00 p.m. for the Priesthood session.
Finally after much distraction and interruption, he asked me the question......and I said YES!
I know his plans for that day included something a little more beautiful and meaningful than what actually transpired, but there is a spot....a beautiful and sacred spot in the golden trees of Sundance where our lives changed, and the days that have passed from that day to this, have brought us more joy and growth than I could have ever hoped for as I stood in that spot.
Today, my heart is filled and bursting with gratitude for a man who has been willing so often to stop on the side of the trail and hold me while I struggle through our journey together. He has been willing to make alternate plans......plans that have sometimes been different than the original, but more beautiful than either of us could have ever hoped!