Monday, August 10, 2009
I usually try to take my shower while Emilee is asleep or while she is watching her favorite movie "Nemo"! However, once in a while she follows me to the bathroom and waits outside the shower giving me the occasional peek through the curtain, dancing around with shower sprinkles all over her face and all over the floor!
On one of these occasions, I pulled back the curtain and found that she had lined the bath tub with every shoe in her closet. It immediately put a smile on my face. There it was....the evidence that she had been there, busily racing back and forth, hands and arms full of shoes, carefully lining them up, then hurrying off to do it all again!! I could just see it playing out in my mind. It was, of course, also evidence of what my life has become!! I really am a mommy! I really do hear the pitter-patter of little feet in my home, and I really do get smothered with juicy baby kisses on a daily basis! I don't care if it is sappy....I love my life!! There are certainly moments when I think...Wow! I don't know if I can go on feeling this tired and overwhelmed. I don't know if I am doing the right thing here....is my lack of knowledge and experience damaging my sweet daughter for good? I certainly hope not!! On the other hand, caring for Emmy fills my soul with the deepest sense of accomplishment and satisfaction. I love love love that feeling!
I realize that things are going to go up a notch on the stress level when the new baby arrives! It will be a whole new ball game trying to balance my life all over again, but I can't wait!! I can't wait to have new baby cheeks to kiss and new ears to whisper words of love and encouragement into! I thank my Father in Heaven for the evidence that surrounds me daily, reminding me of how blessed I am, and how truly capable I am of loving more than I ever imagined!