Remember that Hurricane I mentioned?

There she blows!

Baby Blues

The first couple of weeks after Adeline was born, I'm pretty sure I came down with a case of the baby blues. I felt totally overwhelmed, and almost panicky inside. I felt like I didn't know how to handle my new life as a mother of two. It scared me that I was feeling so down and discouraged, and as much as I loved Adeline, I really missed my old life. I even daydreamed about the days when there were NO children to tend to, and I could sleep when I wanted to. Oh wow.....to be able to sleep.....that seems so foreign now.

During that time I was laying on my bed one afternoon, when something changed. There was a whisper. That kind that speaks to your heart, and it came with a very timely reminder......This is what you have always wanted Michelle. Your old life was okay, but look at yourself now!! You are becoming something greater, and something greater always means pushing beyond your comfort zone. You are not alone. Allow things that are hard to humble you and you will come out of this experience even more capable and full of love.

Okay.

I made a choice to pull out of it (that, and my hormones started to level out again...thank goodness)!

A few days ago I was looking through some recent photos. I found this one of Emilee on a walk we took with her new hat (she loves her new hat), and the thing that struck me......were those beautiful baby blues!!

It is true....this IS what I have always wanted.

Magic

I don't know if I really believe in magic. At least not the abra-cadabra kind of magic. I do, however; believe that there is something magical about life. The creating of it and the living of it!

I had an enchanted childhood, due in major part to my huge imagination! There wasn't anything I couldn't create in my mind. Hours of adventure were invented and acted out day after day and I am SO grateful that I was allowed to enjoy the precious years of childhood. I still remember the day I realized that it was time to grow up. Somewhere in my heart, I knew it was no longer appropriate to pretend. How sad. Why is that? Why do we become too old to pretend? Is it because we start to reach an age where we have more power to REALLY create? We have the ability to use our creative power to manifest the actual life we desire! We do have that power you know. Our Heavenly Father has allowed us, through faith and agency, to create the life we desire. How exciting!

I have co-created a warm home, two beautiful children, and a strong, loving, meaningful marriage!

As I step back and take a good look at my life now.....I can still feel the magic!

Introducing Adeline

Adeline Mae Iverson was born September 13, 2009! It was a hard quick labor, and before I knew it, I was smiling again! I held my fresh from heaven bundle, and silently thanked my Heavenly Father that all was well.

What a miracle.

Welcome to the world Adeline Mae!

Again

I love it!

Some days I wonder if it will send me to the crazy house, but I can't deny that I love it. Our house has been hit by hurricane Emilee, leaving an overwhelming pile of debris in her wake and I honestly don't have it in me to keep up. Not right now.

I am a mother....again!

What does that mean? It means I'm living in a blur of sleepy delirium. My delirium, is however; a beautiful delirium! My days are spent juggling my girls. Their needs, their emotions, their undying need for attention and love!

I got myself into something good.

Love Him!

Tyler and I have an incredible love story! It includes all of the drama and breath-taking anticipation of any good chick flick, and in the end.....the boy got the girl, or the girl got the boy!! Which ever way it goes, we got each other, and I thank the Lord for my wonderful loving Tyler. He makes me feel safe, loved and valued. And....he makes me laugh! I love you babe!

Evidence

I usually try to take my shower while Emilee is asleep or while she is watching her favorite movie "Nemo"! However, once in a while she follows me to the bathroom and waits outside the shower giving me the occasional peek through the curtain, dancing around with shower sprinkles all over her face and all over the floor!

On one of these occasions, I pulled back the curtain and found that she had lined the bath tub with every shoe in her closet. It immediately put a smile on my face. There it was....the evidence that she had been there, busily racing back and forth, hands and arms full of shoes, carefully lining them up, then hurrying off to do it all again!! I could just see it playing out in my mind. It was, of course, also evidence of what my life has become!! I really am a mommy! I really do hear the pitter-patter of little feet in my home, and I really do get smothered with juicy baby kisses on a daily basis! I don't care if it is sappy....I love my life!! There are certainly moments when I think...Wow! I don't know if I can go on feeling this tired and overwhelmed. I don't know if I am doing the right thing here....is my lack of knowledge and experience damaging my sweet daughter for good? I certainly hope not!! On the other hand, caring for Emmy fills my soul with the deepest sense of accomplishment and satisfaction. I love love love that feeling!

I realize that things are going to go up a notch on the stress level when the new baby arrives! It will be a whole new ball game trying to balance my life all over again, but I can't wait!! I can't wait to have new baby cheeks to kiss and new ears to whisper words of love and encouragement into! I thank my Father in Heaven for the evidence that surrounds me daily, reminding me of how blessed I am, and how truly capable I am of loving more than I ever imagined!